Month: September 2005

Outcast Genius

69% Nerd, 56% Geek, 60% Dork
For The Record:
A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored better than half in all three, earning you the title of: Outcast Genius.
Outcast geniuses usually are bright enough to understand what society wants of them, and they just don’t care! They are highly intelligent and passionate about the things they know are *truly* important in the world. Typically, this does not include sports, cars or make-up, but it can on occassion (and if it does then they know more than all of their friends combined in that subject).
Outcast geniuses can be very lonely, due to their being outcast from most normal groups and too smart for the room among many other types of dorks and geeks, but they can also be the types to eventually rule the world, ala Bill Gates, the prototypical Outcast Genius.
Link: The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test

you know, it probably isn’t good that i feel like my life is on pause constantly these days. like i’m just sitting around waiting for something to make me change. i guess i’m not much of a self-starter. i think it’d be cool if tamara came to her senses and wanted to try to have a relationship like we should have, but there’s obviously no point in me waiting on that or thinking it might happen. i need to do something that restarts my life. a big piece of my identity was as a husband, and now i’ve got a big hole where a good chunk of my life used to be. what i’d really like to do is be able to resume my role as a husband, and hopefully add a role as a father. although sometimes i think maybe i’m not very good at the former, and wouldn’t be very good at the latter either. i don’t want to be desperate and do something stupid though. but it sure sucks having someone you love, someone you trusted — even if things weren’t always good — decide to give up on you and cheat on you and walk away. i miss that companionship, that intimacy, the joy of shared memories and secrets.

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watching the events unravel in new orleans should really push home to people how close society — no matter how sophisticated, genteel, refined, complex, proud, humane, whatever — is to the edge of complete chaotic disintegration. i think it is important to really comprehend how easy it would be for the world around you — all the things you take for granted and assume will always be there — to come crashing down, and for you to find yourself in a world you don’t recognize. a world where you survive on wits, brute force, negotiating skills, and/or luck.
it took two to three days in new orleans.

i’m about 50/50 on remembering to take the zocor i was prescribed for my cholesterol levels, but i guess it’s working okay. i went to the doctor recently and had another blood draw. my current numbers: “bad” (LDL or “low density lipids”): 119 (was 150), “good” (HDL or “high density lipids”): 42 (was 39), grand total on the toteboard of cholesterol luv: 185 (was 216). so they gave me a three month prescription for more zocor and made an appointment for three months from now.