so when is that closure thing?

i got the certified copy of my divorce paperwork today. it didn’t make me feel closure, or better, or happy, or relieved, or anything. it just makes me sad because it makes me think about the choices my (ex-)wife has made and where our lives are now because of it. this is so far from anything i ever wanted or expected for my life or from her. but there isn’t anything i can do about it. i have no choice but to try and move on, to try and create a new life on a new track. i wish it were easier.
last week i ordered one of the posters they put out for eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. it’s the one with kate winslet and it says “would you erase me?” (poignant on so many levels.) i’ll get it framed to go next to my bottle rocket poster.