happy 7th affair anniversary

well, i have decided to let today temporarily bring me out of my self-imposed blogging hiatus/retirement. since the topic really is pretty much the entire reason i started blogging.
today marks the 7-year anniversary that my (now ex-) wife tamara admitted to me that she had been having an affair, and the world and future that i believed in fell apart.
[edit: i originally went on to write a whole bunch of stuff analyzing my current situation and my past and where i’m at in my life and why and what i could do about it and blah blah blah blah. but in the end i wiped it all because, really, what the fsck does it matter?]
now back to the regularly scheduled hiatus.