in the middle of the night i had a dream where i was at a house (which i don't recognize, but did in the dream) and tamara and her parents were coming by because tamara was leaving town so she/they were saying goodbye. of course, she was treating me like i was some random person she happened to have known as a friend over the years, and it was unbearable for me (sort of like in real life) so i left the house. tamara came after me to talk to me and i couldn't handle it, so i fell down on the ground and started wailing/crying. evidently i was doing this for real in my sleep too, because i woke myself up. i guess i'm not really over everything...but then i already knew that. but i went back to sleep and did okay the rest of the night. got up and drove to centralia because linc seemed to remember something with jesse james and that town. he asked several locals and no one seemed to know anything, so we moved on. we crossed into illlinois around 1:30pm. we stopped in a small town in illinois name of mt. sterling and ate at a small local place called little henry's. nothing too exciting. we then drove on to macomb, arriving around 4:15pm. took awhile to find the campus, then to find the dorm, but eventually we made it. we checked in, dropped stuff off, then headed out to c-stone to get our wristbands so we wouldn't have to do it tomorrow. had to wait in line anyway. eventually we got through and then had to drive through the grounds to get out a side entrance. we drove back to macomb and decided to eat mexican. we went to a place called diamond daves...it was horrid. i mean, it was really horrid. at least the margarita was okay. then we headed off to wal-mart (the big kmart was already closed or we would have avoided wally world) to get sheets and pillows. back to the dorm and bedded down for the night.
June 2004 Archives
all things considered, nothing too exciting today. the hotel we stayed in last night wasn't too great...the ceiling in the bathroom had obviously leaked in the past, 3/4 of the channels on the tv were in black and white, and the tub didn't drain very well. when we got in we were planning to go eat or something, but we ended up just watching tv and then going to bed. we got up and left around 10:00am and went to a local place called ziggie's. they had free wireless access, so i was able to upload the entries from previous days. we hit the road a little after noon. we got to jefferson city and decided to head for columbia and then stop. it was a pretty early stop (around 5:30pm), but we only have about 200 miles to go. with the free time we relaxed some in the hotel room, then headed to a pizza shop near the university of missouri. after eating, we went to a pool hall and played pool for an hour or two. i bought a pair of headphones, but i was trying to cut them up so they'd fit under my helmet and i cut one of the wires. i also cut myself twice. yea. the hotel is supposed to have free internet (wired), but i can't get a connection. i even bought a new ethernet cable when i bought the headphones. no luck. i'm not sure if it's my computer's ethernet connection or what. oh well.
well, i'm sitting in springfield missouri at ziggie's, which is a 24-hour local breakfast place that has free wireless access. so i checked my mail and uploaded my entries for the last three days. more later.
got up around 8:15am and had a mediocre at best continental breakfast. left around 10am. the ride after mcalister was very pretty -- lots of green and bodies of water. stopped in muskogee for a photo op around 11:30am. got a little lost, but nothing too bad. got to arkansas around 1:30pm. nice weather until close to fayetteville...the roads were wet, but it didn't rain on us. it appeared to have poured quite recently though. we actually didn't get rained on the whole day. very nice. driving through fayetteville was sort of weird because i remembered the place very well, and it was because of tamara. (i still don't understand how she's come to the conclusion that our relationship and marriage has no value now, that she feels no bond or desire for us to continue. what happened to her? whatever happened, and however, it is very sad she sees nothing now.) we stopped and ate at the aq chicken house, which was a place tamara and i ate several times and really liked a lot. it was good. we left there around 4pm, and promptly got lost. after meandering around, linc had wanted to stop by the pea ridge civil war park, but when we got there it was closed. we left and hit missouri a little before 6pm. we then took a couple of roads through the mark twain park that had a lot of sharp curves and drops and such. i hit the back of my heel on the road in turns three times, but only the first time did it cause me to instinctively bounce upright...which set me on a course straight off the road. the white line was the edge of the pavement (no shoulder at all), and i rode it for awhile at probably at least 30 miles an hour. i was pretty close to going off into the grass and then who knows what would have happened. but i didn't, so everything is fine. once again i sent us off on the wrong course and we ended up very near branson. we turned around and got back on track and rode into springfield around 8:30pm. we checked into a hotel 7 (humorously between a motel 6 and super 8, all right in a row) just off of i-44.
got up and hit the road around 11am. within about 15 miles of hillsboro, it started pouring on us. geez. got to fort worth and it had stopped raining. stopped at jo and roy's and surprised our grandmother. i hadn't seen jo and roy in a long time. also saw rhonda and her children. it was good to see everyone and talk with them for awhile. we ate lunch with them. roy was a motorcycle cop back in the 50's and 60's, and he gave linc the harley jacket he wore back then. that was really cool. roy and jo seem like really cool people. mamie (my grandmother) got on linc's bike for a photo op, which was rather surprising since she doesn't get around too well these days. we left around 4pm. i was trying to take back roads to get across an area with no major road going in the direction i wanted, but the road signs were horrible and we got lost multiple times. but we finally hit a road on the map and managed to get back on track. crossed into oklahoma around 7pm. we stopped in atoka around 8:30pm. we were looking for a local diner, but late on sundays isn't the best time for local places in small towns. we ended up eating at a dairy queen in order to best approximate the local flavor. we decided to drive on. we stopped in savanna at a travel lodge around 9:45pm. i don't think we really made up much time today, but from the time we got to jo and roy's on was a rather enjoyable experience.
stayed up until about 3am packing and such, didn't finish everything either, so i left around noon. stopped at wild west honda to pick up saddlebag guards for my brother and bought some foot rain gear. went outside and was packing away the guards and the bottom dropped out of the sky. had to go inside the dealer's to put on the rain gear. my tour bag got rained on and some stuff got wet. gah. oh well. was pretty wet until around columbus. stopped after that and took off the rain gear. shut my helmet on my finger and cut it. ouch. got to austin without any more rain. my brother couldn't get the saddlebag guards on with the socket set he had, so he packed them away and we left around 5:30pm. within five miles of us hitting the road, the bottom dropped again. had to stop and put on rain gear in the rain. right after starting off again, linc got splashed by a passing car...a lot of water. rained hard on us for at least 30 or 40 miles. finally stopped. there was much rejoicing, mostly by my brother who doesn't have a windshield and decided to wear an open face helmet for the trip. got to waco around 8:30pm and decided to stop and eat at a denny's (that was the first time i'd eaten, except for a twix i'd had about an hour earlier...i was drinking water though). asked the price of a room at the la quinta next door - $99. yeah, right. decided to drive on to hillsboro since it wasn't raining and we were behind schedule (originally we were supposed to surprise our grandmother who is staying with relatives in fort worth, but that was definitely out for the day, of course). within a couple of minutes of leaving waco, it started raining on us again. what fun. got to hillsboro, where we stayed in the days inn...which is what the hotel is now where _bottle rocket_ was filmed. come on, you know i couldn't resist. we didn't get room 212 though. still, it was nice to see the place again. i hope we paid our rain dues today...we certainly had to go through a lot of it.
took the bike in this morning for maintenance. it was raining. bleh. found out my license plate was in. yea! no on the saddlebag guards though. well, they said no, then found some and said yes. but the packaging said vtx1300s and mine is a vtx1300c. sure enough, when they called in the afternoon the brackets didn't fit. again. so they gave me store credit. (even though i didn't get credit for labor.) i called around a bunch of honda dealers and finally found one up in north houston that had the saddlebag guards in stock, as well as the deluxe chrome rear carrier (the only one i called that had it). they also had tourmaster elite rain pants in xxl. i bought them...now i just have to drive up there and get them. and i have to buy the deluxe chrome mounting brackets from somewhere else because they didn't have them. what fun. i left work a little early and picked up my bike. (or actually, paid for the bike and then parked it in the dealer lot and left it there until after technology bytes...it was a freaking monsoon around 7pm...streets flooding...what a pain.) anyway, the maintenance is done. the license plate is on. time is running out but i'm mostly on target.
oh yeah...cornerstone only sent me one ticket even though i paid for two and the receipt shows i paid for two. hopefully that won't be a problem once my brother and i get there. got my new insurance card with the correct vin. still waiting on my driver's license. and the extra batteries i bought for the digital camera.
mileage as of today: 612
on the drive in to work i stopped by a phone store to see if they had any earhooks. the guy knew what i was talking about, but they didn't have any. he ordered some and told me they should be in by friday. i hope so. after work, i hit the 600 mark. what a blah point to hit it though: riding down a generic city street, the streets just started to get wet with some rain. in good news, i was headed to the mac store in the galleria where i bought a 15-gig ipod. when i came out, it was raining pretty hard. put on my rain gear and rode home. everything's ready for the maintenance appointment tomorrow. excellent...
mileage as of end of today: 573
rode to work. i guess i rode it home. i don't remember if i went anywhere else or did anything. sheesh, i'm only writing this a couple of days later. i guess this is a sign i need to be better about adding entries at the moment.
today (june 20) was my 6th wedding anniversary. yea, me! 6 whole years. i'm not sure whether to laugh or cry, for any number of reasons. i wish tamara didn't feel the way she does, but she does. so life moves on, and i with it.
mileage at the end of today: 535
yeah, yeah. i only put 25 miles on my bike today. but i bought a new answering machine and a virgin mobile cell phone. i also played around with and tested the throat mics. i think they're going to work well. i went around looking for "earhooks", which are plastic devices which wrap around the outside of the ear and hold the earbud suspended over the ear so you don't get the uncomfort of having an earbud shoved in your ear for hours straight. i didn't find any. i'm hoping i can get some here in houston instead of mail ordering, since i'm not sure they'd make it by saturday.
mileage at the end of today: 510
today i went out searching for mics to use with the motorola talkabouts tamara and i bought a year or two ago when we were taking the kia to brady to sell. i finally ended up at bass pro shops out at the katy mills mall. there i bought a couple of throat mics. i wonder how they'll work? anyway, i can return them if i don't like them. i was also looking at camelbak bags, sleeping bags, naglene bottles, tents, etc, but i didn't make any purchases.
i got my new digital camera in the mail today. it's a canon s410. i charged the battery and took one picture so far. the subject? my motorcycle, of course. :)
yesterday i called stubb's and talked to the guy i bought my bike from. i'm hoping to get my real license plates before i leave. i also need those saddlebag mounts. i went ahead and set up an appointment with service for my 600 mile maintenance on wednesday.
mileage at the end of the day: 438
what a great way to hit the 400 mile mark. i was riding in to work, and as it rolled to 400 i was curving around mecom fountain looking at the statue of sam houston on his horse, a tree-lined road in front of me with the park and zoo ahead of me to my left and the tree and ivy-laden boundaries of rice to my right.
today was supposed to be partly cloudy and no rain. but i needed to buy rain gear for the upcoming trip, so after work i rode over to stubb's on telephone road. got there about 15 minutes before they close, so i quickly tried on some rain gear and bought it. the clouds were somewhat dark and it had sprinkled on me a bit, so i kept them on when i left. lo and behold, on my ride from there to kaveh kanes it started to rain. pretty cool how the timing on that worked out...first time it rains on me on the bike and i just bought and was wearing rain gear. after kaveh kanes i went and ate (late) at doneraki's on westheimer. my advice is to not eat a lot of mexican food really late at night and then go to bed.
mileage at the end of today: 384
i didn't make up for the 10 miles under from yesterday, but i did manage to get 50 for today. which is good, considering when my alarm went off this morning it was pouring rain, and continued to do so for at least the next 30 minutes. in fact, my street was flooded up to my sidewalk and i had to wait an hour for the water to go down so i could drive my pickup to work. there was still a lot of standing water and people stranded and such, but i made it okay. so all my riding was done after i got home from work.
i also noticed tonight that the vin number on my insurance was wrong. the first character should have been "1" but it was an "I". i called progressive and they updated it and are sending me new cards and such. of course, i probably won't get them before i leave on my trip.
speaking of not getting stuff before the trip: i hope i get my new driver's license in the mail before i leave. my current one expires on july 1. i also hope the dealership gets my new permanent plates before i leave. i'm thinking temp texas dealer plates and an expired license on a motorcycle might not be a winning combination when going on an extended road trip through multiple states.
mileage as of end of today: 331
well, it finally happened. i didn't manage to get at least 50 miles today. which isn't so bad since i'm up over two days. lots of rain around again today, but i (still the daredevil) drove into work anyway. some misting but no rain, no street spit, no problem.
mileage at the end of today: 292
lots of rain around, but being the daredevil that i am (ha) i went ahead and rode to work. no problems with rain while riding, nor wet streets, or anything. i need miles! i tried downtown again, and managed to find a good parking spot because someone parked poorly across lines, leaving 2/3 of a spot open...not enough for a car, but a motorcycle fits nicely. had a cup of coffee at kaveh kanes, then off to eric and sara's to watch the pistons spank the lakers. i'm not much of a basketball fan, but it's nice to see a TEAM of underdogs defeat a bunch of hyped individuals, and do so with class. real teamwork and sportsmanship is something that is missing from most professional sports these days, in my opinion.
mileage at the end of today: 228
i got a day up yesterday on my mileage, so i'm hoping to keep ahead. the sunburn experience convinced me to wear long sleeves now. i drove downtown, but didn't park because there was evidently an astros game going on...parking was in short supply. i took a night ride to the house of pies on westheimer and ate, then rode out westheimer onto some farm and markets and such until i had no idea where i was, but managed to find a path back without retracing my steps. i love it when that happens.
mileage as of end of today: 148
put about 100 miles on the bike. i don't ride in circles, but i usually don't have much direction. i try to ride in traffic areas so i vary speed, come to stop signs and lights, etc. i also managed to get a good sunburn on my forehands and forearms. you'd think that wouldn't happen, what with all the sun i get sitting in front of computer terminals indoors all the time...
i'd been wanting to get a new motorcycle for a long time. i'd given my old kawasaki vulcan 750 to my brother back in...uh...i don't know. he was thinking he'd fix it up. he came down to visit and we went by a couple of bike dealerships and i showed him the two motorcycles i was looking at: another kawasaki 750 and the new-for-2004 honda aero (also a 750). a couple of weeks later, my brother called me up and told me he'd decided to not fix up my old bike, and in fact had bought a new bike...a honda aero. what are little brothers for? ; ) so that meant i really didn't want to get an aero...i didn't want to look like we were weird twinkie brothers if we rode together. *shudder* so time went by...
i looked around, got prices, did research, and settled on probably a honda sabre (1100) or *maybe* a honda vtx1300 retro. the price jump from aero to sabre was about $2k, when the jump from sabre to vtx1300 was about $1k. a bit more than i wanted to spend, but for $1k it might be worth it. i went to honda of houston on a thursday a couple of weeks ago and talked with a guy, but they didn't seem to interested in giving me a price i thought was fair. while i was there, i noticed i didn't like the vtx1300 retro in person as much as the pics online. but the vtx1300 looked pretty cool.
then today i was planning to go to stubb's southwest and wild west honda. i stopped by stubb's first. i told the guy i knew dealer cost, was pre-approved at my credit union, knew they were in business to make money, and was looking to buy that day. he said to make an offer. i did, and his manager approved. so i didn't get a great deal or anything, but i got a deal i thought was fair and they made some money. so i'm now the proud owner of a 2004 honda vtx1300. color? black, of course. what else would you expect?
i was sort of up against the ropes because my brother and i had talked about taking a road trip this summer, maybe to cornerstone in illinois, but we'd have to leave on june 26th...which meant time was running out. so i bought with two weeks...perfect, right? well...a new bike has a break-in period. it needs to be run at varying speeds, so that means no long road trip to get the miles. this bike's is 600 miles, then to the shop for fluid changes and such. which means i'll need to ride an average of 50 miles a day to get in the 600 by june 26...
mileage as of the end of today: 48
well, it's been some time since i made a weblog entry. a whole bunch of crazy sh!t went on with tamara. mostly her convincing herself leaving me and breaking our martial vows is the right thing to do. i don't agree, but i know i didn't support her emotionally as well as i should have, and a lot of things plus my male ignorance distracted me from being able to see she was going down the tubes and going to give up on me and our marriage. obviously she's still sinned and went against G-d's will by having an affair and choosing to leave me, but i feel like i've really been trying to figure out what if anything i could do to help the situation. one of my personality flaws shines through in this scenario: too little, too late. tamara no longer cares about our marriage -- she has let her love die, she has let her commitment die. obviously i was a part of that process without knowing the level to which i was, but my attempts to save what i really did consider to be so precious appear to be futile. i don't believe this is G-d's will, but i only hope that G-d can honour my attempts to do the right thing and take care of me and create a new path for me. it would be wonderful if tamara could see that honouring our vows is important, but i think she's been dead in the heart and gone through too much to survive. i will miss her, but hopefully G-d will take care of her and bring her to Him.